Saturday, December 12, 2009

Time is like a handful of sand- the tighter you grasp it, the faster it runs through your fingers.

Isn't that so true? Wow, here we are...it is almost Christmas, the end of 2009, and the end of a season here in New Zealand. A time in which I can only hope I took advantage of every second. Friends will be leaving us tomorrow morning, and the rest of the backpacker teams leave this Saturday morning. Let's be honest, I may never see some of these people again for the rest of my life. That is one of the difficulties of life, learning to say goodbye.


“Time goes by so fast, people go in and out of your life. You must never miss the opportunity to tell these people how much they mean to you.”


I am so excited for outreach! Two months of intentionally loving until it hurts.
This past week was really fun. We all drew names and for the whole week got to bless the person we drew. I had an absolute blast doing it and being secretive! My small group leader Nicki got my name and all week I was blessed with verses from Song of Solomon, a cake, and coffee! At the end of the week, we all dressed up, ate dinner, and a dance party. Good times!

Honestly, I would love to write more, but this is my last Sunday so I'm going to go find my friends.
Oh each team is going to be keeping a blog and I will be updating ours. Here is the link, enjoy!
http://nzbackpackers2009.blogspot.com/

If I were home in the States, I would go get a vanilla latte with you at the Coffee Shop on Cherry Street. Oh well, I guess I can wait three more months...


Thursday, December 3, 2009

Praise.

Time sure flies by. I can't believe it is almost Christmas! And this is crazy, we leave for outreach in two weeks! We will be parting from all the people we have gotten close to. I will be living out of a van with a Dutch man, two Canadians and two Americans. You may call it crazy, but I call it NUTS!
Note: Canadians are so much like Americans, the only way I can distinguish between us is by how they say words like, "about (sounds like a-boat)," "out," or "flag."
Last weekend we went to the West Coast to a town called Punakaiki. We stayed in a hostel by the beach and experienced the serious strength of the ocean, which involved me getting soaked to the bone in my jeans. Now...my Mom always told me to be prepared and girl scouts emphasized this a ton, but I am disappointed to say I went for a smaller pack rather than preparedness. Whoopsie daisy! Thankfully, others were willing to share. Last Saturday I went to sleep having seen an incredible sunset over the Tasman Sea and a cave full of glow worms. But, this weekend will be filled with adventure, because I will be staying on base to clean, do dishes, cook, etc.
This past week has been incredible, lecture-wise. We have been learning a lot and the best is when you feel it is not just going to your head but sinking right down to your heart.
Below is C.S. Lewis’ Reflections on the Psalms. It is lengthy, but I promise, well worth the read! This is a good idea on what we have been learning on this fine week.

The following passage is taken from Lewis’ book, Reflections on the Psalms:

“When I first began to draw near to belief in God and even for some time after it had been given to me, I found a stumbling block in the demand so clamorously made by all religious people that we should ‘praise’ God; still more in the suggestion that God Himself demanded it. We all despise the man who demands continued assurance of his own virtue, intelligence or delightfulness; we despise still more the crowd of people round every dictator, every millionaire, every celebrity, who gratify that demand. Thus a picture, at once ludicrous and horrible, both of God and His worshippers, threatened to appear in my mind. The Psalms were especially troublesome in this way —’Praise the Lord,’ ‘O praise the Lord with me,’ ‘Praise Him.’ . . . Worse still was the statement put into God’s own mouth, ‘whoso offereth me thanks and praise, he honoureth me’ (50:23). It was hideously like saying, ‘What I most want is to be told that I am good and great.’ . . . [Furthermore], more than once the Psalmists seemed to be saying, ‘You like praise. Do this for me, and you shall have some.’ Thus in [Ps.] 54 the poet begins ’save me’ (1), and in verse 6 adds an inducement, ‘An offering of a free heart will I give thee, and praise thy Name.’ Again and again the speaker asks to be saved from death on the ground that if God lets His suppliants die He will get no more praise from them, for the ghosts in Sheol cannot praise ([Pss.] 30:10; 88:10; 119:175). And mere quantity of praise seemed to count; ’seven times a day do I praise thee’ (119:164). It was extremely distressing. It made one think what one least wanted to think. Gratitude to God, reverence to Him, obedience to Him, I thought I could understand; not this perpetual eulogy. . . .

[Part of my initial problem is that] I did not see that it is in the process of being worshipped that God communicates His presence to men. It is not of course the only way. But for many people at many times the ‘fair beauty of the Lord’ is revealed chiefly or only while they worship Him together. Even in Judaism the essence of the sacrifice was not really that men gave bulls and goats to God, but that by their so doing God gave Himself to men; in the central act of our own worship of course this is far clearer — there it is manifestly, even physically, God who gives and we who receive. The miserable idea that God should in any sense need, or crave for, our worship like a vain woman wanting compliments, or a vain author presenting his new books to people who never met or heard him, is implicitly answered by the words, ‘If I be hungry I will not tell thee‘ (50:12). Even if such an absurd Deity could be conceived, He would hardly come to us, the lowest of rational creatures, to gratify His appetite. I don’t want my dog to bark approval of my books[!].

But the most obvious fact about praise — whether of God or anything — strangely escaped me. I thought of it in terms of compliment, approval, or the giving of honour. I had never noticed that all enjoyment spontaneously overflows into praise unless . . . shyness or the fear of boring others is deliberately brought in to check it. The world rings with praise — lovers praising their mistresses, readers their favourite poet, walkers praising the countryside, players praising their favourite game — praise of weather, wines, dishes, actors, motors, horses, colleges, countries, historical personages, children, flowers, mountains, rare stamps, rare beetles, even sometimes politicians or scholars. . . . Except where intolerably adverse circumstances interfere, praise almost seems to be inner health made audible. . . . I had not noticed either that just as men spontaneously praise whatever they value, so they spontaneously urge us to join them in praising it: ‘Isn’t she lovely? Wasn’t it glorious? Don’t you think that magnificent?’ The Psalmists in telling everyone to praise God are doing what all men do when they speak of what they care about. My whole, more general, difficulty about the praise of God depended on my absurdly denying to us, as regards the supremely Valuable, what we delight to do, what indeed we can’t help doing, about everything else we value.

I think we delight to praise what we enjoy because the praise not merely expresses but completes the enjoyment; it is its appointed consummation. It is not out of compliment that lovers keep on telling one another how beautiful they are; the delight is incomplete till it is expressed. It is frustrating to have discovered a new author and not to be able to tell anyone how good he is; to come suddenly, at the turn of the road, upon some mountain valley of unexpected grandeur and then to have to keep silent because the people with you care for it no more than for a tin can in the ditch; to hear a good joke and find no one to share it with. . . .

If it were possible for a created soul fully . . . to ‘appreciate’, that is to love and delight in, the worthiest object of all, and simultaneously at every moment to give this delight perfect expression, then that soul would be in supreme beatitude. . . . To see what the doctrine really means, we must suppose ourselves to be in perfect love with God — drunk with, drowned in, dissolved by, that delight which, far from remaining pent up within ourselves as incommunicable, hence hardly tolerable, bliss, flows out from us incessantly again in effortless and perfect expression, our joy is no more separable from the praise in which it liberates and utters itself than the brightness a mirror receives is separable from the brightness it sheds. The Scotch catechism says that man’s chief end is ‘to glorify God and enjoy Him forever.’ But we shall then know that these are the same thing. Fully to enjoy is to glorify. In commanding us to glorify Him, God is inviting us to enjoy Him” (pp. 90-98).

Friday, November 20, 2009

Let's get dunked!

What an incredible time this week has been. I wish I could describe it, but it would be much better if we could sit and talk. I will tell you one thing. I got baptized in a river. It was incredible to say the least. My small group leader Nicki got to do the baptizing, which is something she has been wanting to do. It was a blessing for me to have her do it. Here is a video of it. I mainly put this on here for my mom, but you can enjoy it as well if you want to!

Friday, November 13, 2009

And I could write a song a hundred miles long-Coldplay

I hope my posts are not too boring to read. I try to keep them short and sweet, but my forte is not writing. I go back and read my blogs wondering how on earth anyone would enjoy reading them. They are choppy and confusing. Thank you for your patience!

I just wanted to update that I have only five weeks left of lecture phase, then 8 more after that for outreach. Time, as we all know, goes by too fast and makes life short.

So I have been thinking about you. I want to hear how you are doing. Please, friends, family, what is going on there? Take a few minutes, tell me about yourself! Are you doing well? Can I be praying for you about something?

Thursday, November 12, 2009

A plane, a star, no...a huge comet!


There isn't a whole lot to update on. Life here on the base is incredible as usual. Last weekend we hiked Arthur's pass. See my pictures here.
*side note: it was amazing when my lovely Mother sent a package of goodies! When I say package I mean HUGE. She sent s'mores fixings, candy corn, and much more. Everyone got to enjoy it! Mom, thank you so very much. You have no idea the blessing you are in my life and others. Rewards in heaven.
Other things we have done this week include a small group time I will remember forever. Nicki, my leader, took us to her favorite Oxford spot. She wanted to walk up a creek to a waterfall. She has been wanting to do it for a long time, so we felt blessed to be apart of this. Needless to say, the water was cold and the creek was very deep in parts. At one point, (and we were super proud of ourselves for this feat) we had to "heave-ho" a huge tree to get across because it was so deep.
As many of you know I am one that likes to go to bed early-ish. Well, I go to bed early here because we have to be up at 6:30am! My nickname has become Gramps...awesome. Erin, quit rolling your eyes!!! Anyway, my friends Anya and Kristin, have been trying to get me to stay up later and go on walks with them. Finally, last night I decided I was game. A few others decided to come along also to go star watching. I say all this because I was so well rewarded for staying up. We saw an incredible falling star, more like comet!! It was so huge, a friend named Anthony thought we could go find it. Blessings in the gold.

I hope you are well. I miss you and wish you could be here with me seeing, smelling, learning, climbing, tramping, etc.
Good Night.

Wednesday, November 4, 2009

Here we go!


Well Friends and Family, the wait is over.
We found out our outreach teams today.
I AM GOING TO NEW ZEALAND AND FIJI!!!
Thank you for your prayers and love. Thank you Cory for being amazing and letting God work through your e-mail. Many blessings to you my friend. Please, PLEASE, please be praying for us as we prepare to go out to the uttermost part of the world to share the love and grace of Christ in mid December. I mean I know we are here now, but we will be doing two solid months of going out.

Thank you.

“We must go beyond textbooks, go out into the bypaths and untrodden depths of the wilderness and travel and explore and tell the world the glories of our journey.”

Tuesday, November 3, 2009

Music is what feelings sound like...

If I could write like a specific person it would be Donald Miller. His words always speak to me. I feel like I am sitting with him over coffee, chatting, when I read his books.
If you and I were sitting at coffee right now, we might talk about music; how music touches us as human to the very depths of our souls and spirits. It makes people come alive.
Music shows me there is a God. It makes me feel I have a purpose on this Earth. That it is no accident I am here. How can we listen to music and not believe? Granted, there is some music that does not move me, but even still, I love it.
When I go for coffee I want to get deep. I want to talk about such things. I want to be real.
So go get coffee with an old friend or new friend, share your hearts, and let the caffeine and good conversation take you away.

I am listening to A Fine Frenzy on grooveshark.com, so good!

You Picked Me

One, two, three
Counting out the signs we see
The tall buildings
Fading in the distance
Only dots on a map
Four, five, six
The two of us a perfect fit
You're all mine, all mine

And all I can say
Is you blow me away

Like an apple on a tree
Hiding out behind the leaves
I was difficult to reach
But you picked me
Like a shell upon a beach
Just another pretty piece
I was difficult to see
But you picked me
Yeah you picked me

So softly
Rain against the windows
And the strong coffee
Warming up my fingers
In this fisherman's house
You got me
Searched the sand
And climbed the tree
And brought me back down

And all I can say
Is you blow me away